Alot.
One of it is singing of course.
So much time constrain and so much problems.
Hafizz said my life can be made into a Hindi movie.
With all that drama and stuffs.
Good idea aye?
If it were to ever come true, he's not gonna be the director.
No way!
Oh well, he said that Im always depressed.
Whatever happened before, just put it behind.
He still wants me to balance out my life.
Like Fairul said,
"You're overworking. "
Been busy busy busy!
My business and my job plus my family and the income.
Stabilizing everything is not easy.
Tiring.
But just like William said,
"Get multiple streams of income."
Family's financial crisis has been worst.
With the economic downturn and recession.
Oh dear god, I hate this the most.
After the confinement period,
he finally came back.
He's back in Tekong now.
I miss him already.
He came down to Woodlands yesterday because Mentor wants to meet him.
Which was supposedly to be at Clementi.
But he was so fast asleep, to the extend his sister texted me,
"I know he's supposed to meet you. Tapi susah betol la nak kejut dikni. Padahal he asked me to wake him up tau."
*slaps forehead*
He came down all the way to Woodlands and I immediately recognised him.
He turned so DARK already.
Hugged him and sat down.
Spoke to my mentor and I happily had my meal, alone.
I don't share my food! LOL.
Just kidding.
After that, went to chill for awhile.
Talked and catch up on things and he finally asked me,
"Are you depressed?"
I know he wasn't kidding coz I can get his message just by his expression.
He knows I have been lying and hiding something from everyone.
He recognised that my self-esteem and tone has been different.
Maybe because I am not that hyper and crazy yesterday? hahaha!
Oh wells.
Its been since he went off.
I admitted to him that I am extremely depressed and pour my every heartfelt words to him.
I kept in too much and with my exhaustion, lets just say that I am currently in a very bad shape.
I couldn't talk to just anyone about my problem.
It is only him I can trust on this problem.
Yes, he knows the issue in depth.
He didn't wanna know the details of course, it'll be too long.
But he understands it well already.
When my mentor first saw how we treat each other
She commented,
"Both of you are very close.."
Then looked at Awi and said,
"and I can see that you trust her alot."
My mentor did mention too, yesterday morning,
"I can see that all of your friends trust you alot. That is very good. It is not easy to have that kinda trust you know."
I replied a simple,
"Well, I went through alot to get that. But it's worth it. :) "
The sacrifices and all.
It's worth it.
Relationships are important.
Seriously.
I miss Awi.
So so much!
He got angry the other time.. Not at me of course.
"Dia da buat kau macam gini. Tu jantan sial tau Na!"
I was speechless.
His expression never lie whenever he's angry.
Awi is not a friend.
He's family.
