This post is mainly about the people that I actually missed dearly..

The 3 warriors.

I know I know..

Call it a lame name but we had that name for ages!

Majidz Clan is huge.

And I really mean huge. (refer to first photo. It's not even half of the clan)

To the extend that when conflicts occur, expect a war.

Ready? Set.. Charge!

Nope, we don't favor talking behind each other's backs and act nicely in front of the person after that. (hypocrites!)

We do talk behind each other's backs but after that, we will confront each other.

Unsightly but HEALTHIER. (Mark my words)

Those are the only photos I managed to find with the 3 of us in a photo.

Sadly..

Oh well

I love my nails.

OK! OUT OF TOPIC!

I am trying to update this blog everyday though time doesn't permit.

It's actually for the sake of my fading memory.

Yup.. It's bad now..

Yes, DONT sympathize me!

I want to be treated normally and NOT specially.

Its awkward.

^^

"When the past haunts you, you remembered the feelings you felt then."

Tell me about it.

I just had that attack just now.

Yeah, just now..

I was browsing through photos of the Majidz Clan and I saw a particular photo and a thought came rushing into my mind,

"Just look at this. Look at us. Look at how much I trusted you."

After that, another thought came,

"You suck. I have a better life now. I am not at fault, you are."

Talking about ego Sam!

I have ego.

Big one at it too.

I cannot stand down.

I will not tolerate being at the bottom with regards with my rights.

Seriously. I won't give in.

Sometimes these kinda ego actually are the ones that helps you alot.

Think about it.

It makes you feel good about yourself. Then, you're able to bring yourself up.

Higher and higher and the sky's the limit.

My limit is the universe. Which is infinite with no limits.

Go figure.

^^

It's for your own use. Don't use it against others.

If you use your ego against me,

I will prove to you that you're very wrong then, you're gonna get depression.

Yup.. PROVE to you.

Met up with my mentor just now.

She listened to what I have to say.

Her first comment was,

"Wait. What happened to you?"

"What's up?"

"Your eyes. It shows so much you're not well. They're very red."

"I know. :)"

"Rest more please.."

"You know I'm unable to"

And bla bla bla..

Though it was only a few months since I've known her.

She knows I am not the type to stand down.

If I need to fight, I will fight to the death.

She knows that.

^^

Hafizz gave me the news that he's leaving for Australia in July.

Fasting month or not, not confirmed yet.

Means, after he ORD, he fly off.

I gotta admit I felt the pinch when he said,

"You won't be able to see me after July. For a year."

Oh!

Being thick skinned

I told him to miss me.

hehehe

He said he will but as usual, I wasn't convinced.

Then he said,

"Then why would I take time to meet and lend my ears late in the night when I can sleep or play com but go out with u to try make u happy?"

:)

I'm convinced..

NOT.

But that's very sweet. (talking about flirtatious Sam..)

You see,

Scorpios are known to have sharp tongues.

It will go right through you, damaging any cell it touches. (What a description. -_-)

It can convince anyone it wants to.

Apparently, he is a Scorpio.

Just like me. Only that, I'm a much more tail than him.

Which just means one thing.

I'm a tad more cunning. (LOL?)

Well, I don't trust anyone.

I am just glad that he took the effort to say that.

Smart.

I wish him all the best in University.

I know I am going to miss him alot.

By then, there will be no one who will be able to hijack their schedules just to meet me.

He knows I bottle up my feelings nowadays.

All of the stress are all bottled up.

Though I won't talk about it, his company was good enough.

Thank you for waking me up from that daze I had.

Thank you for the head massage. Sorry that I used to think that it's worthless but it actually helps alot.

Thank you for planting alot of general knowledge about people and teach me how to be on guard all the time.

"You'll never know if there is someone out there who's capable to psycho you."

Awi is having fever.

That's why he forgot to wake me up today.

But I am a lucky person to have a bestfriend, Reeeed(Rid), who calls me a million times to make sure I woke up.

Who would wake up whenever I called and entertain me.

Who appeared in front of my workplace just to fetch me.

Who came all the way from Tampines to Bukit Batok just to see me. Which he needs to go to

Bugis after that.

Who keeps checking up on me when I'm unwell.

Awi is in camp..

He's worried about me.

He's been trying to reach me but he just couldn't.

Because camp is draining him dry.

Yet, he's another Scorpion.

Sharp tongued but very loving.

"Iye nek! Kesian kau Na.. You're still young.. Pls take care of yourself."

He always call whenever he has the time.

Once I miss the call, gotta wait for 2 days for it to come again.

So no matter what I'm doing, I will answer his calls. Even if the talk is only for awhile.

He's my family..

I miss working with Rin.

Seriously.. I miss talking nonsense to her and see her cursing at me.

hahahaha!

She will text me everytime she went over to her mother in law's house.

Because she wanna meet me to have a chat.

Knowing that Im always busy, she try her luck by telling me all the time. (report strength)

Up till now, I'm still unable to meet her.

I'm under this time bomb whereby if I don't abide by it, it will explode.

I will be in pieces.

^^

She was the most excited when I said I wanna chop off my long tresses.

For the benefit of health, she said.

"If I were you, I'd be happy if that happens (about momma finding me someone to marry). You would be living life your way. But knowing you, you still have unfinished goals."

Far from me.. The furthest. But she still knows about my life. Without me telling.

^^

Pop! goes the weasel.

Here comes the always busy twinny.

Just like me.

Still, she warned me not to forget her in future.

I'll be crazy if I do!

Miss this annoying woman of mine.

I wonder how she's doing. :"(

With these friends around me, there's no wonder how the past can still haunt me but it cannot kill me anymore.

Dear past, I've transformed you into a textbook and you're harmless. If you happen to become harmful, Imma mutate you into a hamster and make you run on the wheel all day.

That's cruel.

Too much of reading books and histories.

My imagination has been, well, different.

My nails are beautiful.

I am full of emotions and complexity.

You suck.

Oops? ^^

Ok bye.