I seriously cannot get enough of the DBSK boys.

Jaejoong wanted to embark into a more rock genre for singing back then.
Since DBSK broke up, he has been embarking into that genre as a soloist.
Of course, his voice is so amazing!

To add on, he just got more good-looking! hehe
*fangirl mode*

I fangirl whenever I feel depressed.
It's like the easiest entertainment I can get, you know?

I can literally feel when one backstab me.
I can feel the excruciating pain and the bleeding on my back.
I have eyes on the back of my head too and I saw who did it.
Well, I guess Allah wanna test my strength now.
So stay strong and get through this hurdle once and for all..


After the break up with Fyrouz, I forced myself to change.
To prove him otherwise.
After all that, I didn't prove anything to him, I proved myself instead.
That I actually pasted that smile onto my best friend's face.

When I met the ex, he did mention, "You're a strong girl. You have always been. Don't back down now. I know you don't back down from a fight."

So all along I was dumb enough to believe that he thought of me otherwise.
Yeah, we're friends now.
Not close but he's good at being a friend than a boyfriend though.
And whatever we went through before just have him to learn of myself to be a better friend.
Amin..

Who's been backstabbing me?
Lets say this once and for all..
My biggest fight now is my boss.
Seriously bapak, you know I'm Miss Moody now then still act normal ar?
You give special treatment to others but not me.
But it's good that you still care for me.
You tried to make me smile by buying me donuts and all but I'm still waiting for your answer regarding my issues in your company.

My boss knows of my interest in business.
He talks business to me whenever he has the time.
During the excursion, it really feels good when he totally trust me to handle everyone on my own.
So this is the blessing though.
Behind the hurdles, he actually appreciate and know of my capabilities.
But still, please settle my issue la..
Haiyo!


Second, the friends that stereotyped me since I started embarking into business.
You guys may not tell me but I can read your every actions towards me.
Don't do this, friends.
You don't have to shy away to reject my proposal.
I mean, it's only beneficial to people who find it substantial though.
What's the point if you don't find good in it and do it?
You're gonna make yourself unhappy what..

The blessing behind this?
I learnt of the different interest that lies within my own friends that I never have learnt before.
I learn on who will stay with me and who won't.


I know I have been avoiding a lot of people but that's basically because I've been busy.
I still wanna send my parents to Hajj and have them retire and be happy all the time.
I still wanna build a mosque with my fellow muslim brothers and sisters.

I wanted so much to purify my heart.
I learnt not to hold grudges though I've been pointed finger at so many times.
And it's not as easy as saying it of course.
I am now going through so much challenges.
Brother said,"Just remember that whatever you're going through now is what you asked for. Reality is what you make."
I asked for assistance to purify my heart and not to keep grudges anymore.
So this is what Allah is granting me.
Through challenges, I will hatch out a whole new different person and In Shaa Allah grew so much closer to Him. In Shaa Allah..

Well yesterday was a good day.
I've got Ngaji and the Ustazah never tested me before since I have been working and being so busy.
So basically, she did yesterday and she decided,"There's no need for you to start from one. Jump three levels up. Don't need waste time."
I was astonished and I thank Allah for giving me such good memory to be able to remember the Jawi alphabets!
Syukran Ya Rab!

I seriously need to do up my assignments man.
Deadline is on 24th.
Oh man!

Sabar itu separuh daripada iman.

I shall not disappoint my best friend, friends and clan.
I will get through this, people.
I just need your blissful du'as for me and that's more than enough.
Thank you..

I want so much but I wasn't sure if I needed it.
So I delegated it into two different segments.
The 'wants' and the 'needs'.
So I shall focus on my needs now and go after the 'wants' after that.


ok bye