I've been on protocol lately with my job.
Been flying here and there improvising and liaising with MSF more than often nowadays.
Not funny, I've been in and out a lot of times.

Problematic kids are under my care now.
Which just means having form teachers, counsellors and MSF officers to be closely in contact with me.
Can't deny the fact that I love my job, always impacting lives of children whose minds are growing to become a person in future.
And there comes the problematic ones..
When I mention problematic, it's not their attitude, I meant their lifestyle.
To reshape and guide and give consistent motivation all the time is really demanding on focus.
I am forced to multi task all the hours I am in operation.
Again, not funny.

Boyfriend is taking the role of an elder brother seriously nowadays.
That, I am very proud of that.
He kept on saying,"Thank you for motivating me and pushing me to be stronger everyday" to me.
But the efforts on him.
Three cheers for you, baby.

And so he teaches his youngest sister academically and yesterday he went,"I'm mentally tired. Now I know how you feel everyday."
To add salt to the wound, I said,"Yeah. Basically. But my exhaustion derives from that, first and foremost, add on with a lot of things equivalent to you running on a marathon while trying to memorise notes that you're suppose to input into your presentation later for your boss."
He said,"I can never do that. You're born to be a teacher and leader. Not me."

I can accept the fact that he's not born to be a teacher in my kind of line, but a teacher to other people in a sense of motivation? No.
He can be a motivator to all the people he knows.
I can accept the fact that he's not born to be a leader leading a bunch of workers to solely follow the SOP everyday, but a leader to his family and friends and being a role model? No.
He can be a leader and role model to his current and future family also, friends.

It's the belief one should have implanted into their system.
Which derives from their engine, their soul.

Mind over body.
If you can't think with your mind, your body won't work appropriately.
If you believe you can execute a task, you can do it.
Most people think that moving a whole building from one place to another is impossible.

But I say, it's possible.
Think further and the human mind can do wonders.
But anyway, moving a building from one place to another happened before in context of ancient history when supernatural powers co-exist with the living.

I may be just good in words and not by actions.
But some people are good with actions but can't decipher them into words.
Imagination run wild inside their heads but they can't describe it into words.
Everyone, works differently.
And why am I even misleading the main topic to this now?
Hahaha! Gee…

Back to work..
I have been contemplating to even have a change in sector and try some other things than teaching.
But there's this fear that I might turn 'dumb' if I were to do that.
I'm not saying that people who are not teachers are dumb, of course.
It's just because I've developed interest in continuous learning through my very long career.
I gained knowledge of the difference between children, teenagers and adults.
And I've came to learn to understand and treat different groups of people differently.
Psychological terms, I know how different people reacts to different things.

In quite a dilemma now but I believe Allah will provide me with answers soon.
No doubt I love teaching.
It's my passion.

But business, is my calling.
Decisions decisions decisions.

ok bye