My bestfriend , Ridaudin , has been with for half of our lives and I gotta say, the road is freaking rocky all the way back then. We literally just get on each other's nerves to kill. But we didn't.
We basically grew up n see each other grew up and changes here n there. But that's just how a Bestfriend is like. No matter how long you don't see each other, you'll still know each other.
But I gotta admit, I changed a lot.
Simply put it, there are some preference change but I didnt point it out. I just go with it as if it never changes. You get what I mean?
I met Shah years back and for a start, Rid never pass any judgment to this guy. He just feels nothing. Until they met.
One day, Rid said Shah is the one for me.
Coz once upon a time he said, he'll never stop looking out for me until he's sure that someone else can do better than him. N he said, Shah is the one.
It's just different how things are going now.
You know the person when you look at the mirror.
Head to toe, you know that person. But sometimes, you don't.
Of course that person you see in front of you is the one who has been up and against your nonsense for you whole life!
Sometimes that person just gets tired of it.
For most, they call it reflection.
And then you bring yourself throughout your life, with the ups n downs and what nots.
Then you found someone who's exactly like you.
NOT physically though. Duh!
I call that person, Shah.
I cannot fathom any thought of not having him around me.
That's why I'm getting more n more worried of his movements and it's like I'm gonna go bonkers soon.
I can only thank Allah for letting him into my life after so many tormenting years of not being understood by anyone.
Trust me, I know so well my best friend don't understand me 100% though he knows me so much.
I had a talk with Shah yesterday night and a new revelation came to me.
I went,"Hey, he can understand this part of me."
You know the heart to heart talk? Which sometimes I feel that most don't get it?
Because the scripts are always filled with anger instead of confession of love. For anything.
With Shah, I can talk about anything.
It's no longer a heart to heart talk, it's like our souls are just actually each other's halves.
Seriously. Sometimes I put that though aside n force myself not to put my hopes high.
But everyday comes, everyday that feeling grew.
Until now, I'm already nuts forcing myself to do anything.
I can tell him abt all of my stupid troubles I face and how I EXACTLY feel about things.
C'mon, people just don't tell the exact feelings. They're always giving the surface of things.
I, went, really deep with it.
N Shah understands it. I can see he does.
He cares for me so much I turned more n more afraid.
I can tell him abt my deepest thoughts abt others and he won't blew me off.
And after all these years, he knows how soft I am.
Yes, I can tell you now, I am soft.
My emotions run very fast and most of the time, it's not anger.
By far, I managed to tell him how I did it to make myself look as how I'm being looked at now by society.
After he found out how I actually am.
This is a whole new level.
He's not my bestfriend. He's my pair.
Competent and up to my par. Always up and against me just like my own reflection.
