It wasn't about the change in your partner's character or even yours.
It's the things you never had the chance to witness before marriage, that surprises you.

To be honest, I am really surprised. Jaw dropping new things around me.
It's the same for him too.
As I believe that he now knows how bad of a temper I have with me.
Now he believes me.

Sometimes I turn back to look what my life was like before.
Nowadays, it just didn't matter anymore, all those bad things happened.
I'm looking straight up front and always preparing, ready for battle.
With faith, I know I can do it.

I feel lazy talking about how my life was like.
Only that every now and then I will talk to my husband about it, when the need arises.
Such as using examples for ideology to explain a certain theory.

Apart from all that, I'm fine.
Only still adjusting.

I'm on the brim of my part to actually dislike my career.
Not the industry, it's on wherever I'm going with this.

Basically, I cannot hold on any longer to being an employee without pursuing for my dreams.
In Shaa Allah rezeki aku ada, jika Dia izinkan.

It's been close to 10 years of me working, non-stop without a break in between.
I was never jobless throughout. Good enough aye? Coz I'm afraid I might get lazy if I take a break.
That's one of the reason why I don't really believe in taking a break.

Because my job, this industry I'm in, is one of the things that keeps me delighted.

Ok bye