After a not so long hiatus, I'm back here.

Honestly, it's just about me not having anything much to blog about.
Not much to lash out.
Since I got married, things has been so different.
Apparently, it's one of the many reasons why I don't blog much.

5 years ago, this period, I was so full of angst.
Facebook memories brought me back like a cosmic black hole and bam!
I was back to where I was.
Nah, kidding. That's too much of drama.

I don't even remember why I was so full of angst.
I tried doing some research on the things I kept inside my computers.
Nothing.
Until I found some photos.

Everything starts to go on rewind in my head.
For awhile there, I was lost.
I felt the anger, the pain and sadness.
Surprisingly, it's not much.
I gave a laugh and back to reality.

A lot of things happened.
For those here who are curious on what I'm talking about.
5 years ago was the 'grace' period after the break up with my ex.
Yeah, the one I called a douchebag and a cunt. *laughs*

So much drama if I'm gonna rant it here, no point.
Leave it as that.

I met Shah a year after all that drama then my whole life took a different turn.
That man literally just influenced me that much.
How? He did nothing. 
He followed me, my ways and took learning a step at a time.
His actions intrigued my curiosity so much, I move forwards a lot faster than I thought I could.
He did all that on purpose, which later I found out.

Years after the drama, I reconciled with my ex and we became friends.
I call it acquaintanceship and nothing more than that.
Though I know his family since most of them were still kids.
And apparently Shah's family knows about 2-3 of them just about recently.

I didn't get why he was always apologising to me every time he wishes me on occasions. But recently, I finally understood.
Basically, I don't really remember much about our relationship. *smirks*
That's really fantastic for me not to remember.

I am where I am now due to whatever I've went through.
I no longer feel the pain, sadness or whatever nonsense of the past happenings.
For sure, it shaped me a lot. 
I kept re-shaping over and over.

My husband, the one who calls me queen of the house, always has it his way.
He just wants me to come home after a hard day's work and relax and do nothing.
Queen, huh? Hahahaha!

I may be filled with a lot of anger.
I used to detest the month of May and June.
But ever since I knew Shah, he changed my perception of a lot of things.

One of the things that woke me up was when Shah said something like this,
"He may call it crazy or rude. I call it confidence, your strength."

Ok bye